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2005-09-21T22:31:00.000+08:00

test test test

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2005-03-04T17:45:00.000+08:00

hi guys.. wont be using blog for the moment.. =)
thanks for tagging along
see ya guys..
will update if i decided to have blog again yeah!
choaz

terrible

2005-02-16T19:27:00.000+08:00

i flunked my sciences badly?
i donnoe.. but guess quite a bad time having this test..
maybe is really time for me to buck up and STOP PLAYING!
get serious now..
warning light is on..
no jokes steff.. no time..
plans where i wan to go?
i have decided..
i will just try my best in exams and see my results..
but of cos i must keep on improve myself and not stay on spot yeah?
hmmm.. seriously.. new year does make ppl fat and have greater appetite..
and i am one of those victims who got that big tummy..
no way!
going to clear those toxins and stop JUNKS!
you hurt me enough!
haha =)
also make a point to cut down on tv..
put my time in studies and church and fun under the sun
den watch tv, learn nothing.. hahaxx
anyway.. ya peeps should realise why my entries seem so depressing and frustrating?
hmmm... i donnoe.. but i noe i don wan to lose passion in serving DAD..
is terrible to lost ya way in contact with DAD..
i lost twice.. its seriously difficult to struggle back..
and now i am clear that i might lost my way again..
a signal is warning me..
not that i did not do my quiet time.. understand and learn..
but just that no passion to do for HIM..
consider me as dead even i did those.. pointless..
hmmm..but now i am seriously picking myself up..
i am serious all time.. but maybe i am too scare to again lost my way
is tiring..
why am i sharing this to ya?
hmm.. to my brothers and sisters in christ... =)
stay firm and always find ways to KNOW HIM DEEPER
listening to sermon and cell is NOT ENOUGH (i noe ya all noe =) )
but there is something that i want to say..
even if there is something that disturb ya, always seek HIM..
cos sometimes this disturbance might blockage ya relationship with HIM..
i donnoe.. but i feel that way... =)
and DON GIVE UP! even sometimes ya cant feel HIM..
NEVER GIVE UP! find the way back and ya WILL find it! =)
really.. and ya will find it amazing.. even though quite tedious..
but it is worth it for the LORD!

(the JOY of the LORD is in ME)
anyway i donnoe why i will say out what happen to me.. but guess its good to share yeah?

ah

2005-02-14T17:04:00.000+08:00

something is really freaking me out..
if ya want to ask me or request something..
can be more poilte..
ya sound so demanding as if i really owe ya smth..
be patience steff..
actually when writing this now.. i am not angry at all
but donnoe why
i feel so unreasonable..
i want to get out!!!!
being sensative?
i might be or i might not be..
assumption rather..
cos i donnoe what shes thinking exactly..
gonna to ask her..
to clear misunderstanding or my doubts rather
*really desperate must pray abt it*

okie

2005-02-14T16:47:00.000+08:00

something has been really disturbing for the past few days?
really.. stupidly.. the root of the problems are i donnoe
might be spiritual life or easily being influence by the world
or too excited for CNY that everything just gone case..
but at least there is still hope to rescue me from the pit hole
but there is something that really disturb and making me feel frustrated
not that frustrated but rather where i stand..
is a role that play part of my spiritual life..
some people noes :)
okie.. so that what i am disturb about..
anyway anyone has any recommanded spiritual food?
i mean books..
yup.. cos i cant just depend on sermon and Bible study to survive..
anyway also have to strengthen the knowledge of His word..
*be prayerful*
okie.. now the class has make me known as the very religious person..
because of one english lesson..
but to those who read my blog..
i am not religious but i BELIEVE :)
like people idol on superstars , i look upon God! :)
hmmm.. quite embaressing but shldnt let my passion cease..
today is valentine day too..
got alot of sweet things from friends..
famous amos cookie - CUI FEN! :)
ferror rocher chocolates - MAY! :)
merci chocolates - NORMAN AND FAHMI! :) why lie to me is from khairul! ha
fairy wand - SOO BOON! :)
lollipop - JO! :)
earrings - YEW CHIN! :) he has galfriend le.. ahahaxx.. don think anyhow!
super sweet valentine today..
but is the happiness
i want JOY!

1,2

2005-02-06T13:31:00.000+08:00

1,2,1,2,1,2,1,2,1,2,1,2,1,2,1,2,1,2,1,2,1,2
which one is better...
actually still quite trouble over which question to do for FNN
i quite sian doing this coursework le..
have done for 2 yrs
and bad experience too..
endless night, teacher rushing ya always..
edit here edit there.. printing, finding research, recipe, cook, conclusion
duhz.. I DONNNN WAAANNNTTT!!! =(
actually quite excited to receive coursework one..
but den forsee myself going to have dark circles and go haywire.. (which i hope not)
i am going to rush ahead of time..
only CHOICE..
and this coursework also quite troublesome..
cos ya cant study well..
whole day doing coursework till 3am or even later..
den wake up go school..
this was what happened last yr..
not trying to boost abt whatsoever how great my coursework is..
but..
those people who are interested in taking FNN..
hmm.. think twice? =) hahaxx..
it also have its fun part la.. it deepen ya knowledge alot..
esp daily life..
hmm.. yesterday dreamt of taking Q1 which is the high fibre..
quite common..
Q2 is about overweight.. quite challenging.. my friend said..
but must have great determination to do it
if not ya will not score well..
my interest is in Q2.. but.. kept on wondering..
have done the draft for that..
quite amazingly not feeling stress yet..
maybe not there yet but i noe God will be there to guide me..
i am going to achieve the greatest glory for HIM
with all my means..
one of my resolution.. =)
now.. i will keep training like a soldier
when exams comes (eg: war)
hahaxx.. going to FIGHT man! so must keep my pace right now..
thanks for my cell grp and friends for giving me continous support! =)
love ya lots!

brainless..

2005-02-06T01:02:00.000+08:00

haiz.. really disappointed over what ppl say..
some people are just so brainless over what they are saying..
not trying to say that i am sad with them
but
please.. i hate HYPOCRITES!
something guess making things clear is good thing afterall..
standing on what i think! =)
yesh...
not trying to say i HATE ppl in the sense of unforgivness..
but i think there is NONO sometimes for ppl to act that way..
but just don figure out why?
i rather dislike..
1) hypocrites
2) attract attention
3) self -pity
4) blame people
5) liars
6) scold vuglarity (bad verbal words)
thought in the past i can tolerate but realise i cant..
cos maybe feel that why must we act that way when God created us perfectly fine
just that we need to work towards the goals to be more like HIM
and not be like Him ya...
hmm.. how wonderful the world will be like free from these..
but IMPOSSIBLE..
but possible is to keep praying.. and bring them to christ?
ya.. tt where life transform for some people..
great huh?
hmmm.. also i learn alot..
not to see things using my own emotional rather based on facts..
ya..
and realise my weakness is to being influence by what people say..
and agree to it even though i disgree..
haiz..
bad huh?
uh-huh...hmm.. yup.. tt all i wan to say..
but not trying to mean anyone..
some self-reflection... =)

duhz

2005-02-04T14:21:00.000+08:00

stomach pain... now..
but don care.. must determine to write my blog if not i will wait till donnoe when then write..
yesterday quite interesting..
even though its a tired day after lessons and tests.. but nevertheless..
i wont feel tired having a break out at holland V with audrey..
suppose to meet adel but she cant make it due to her committment in work..
its understandable =)
hmm.. before that.. on my way travel to jurong..
sitting on a jail train..
unique design with the bars stick on the window panel..
when standing outside..
quite horrifying.. cos a train of prisoners..
imagine those lost souls are travel in that train to Hell..
den more..
STOP IT! hahax
okie.. too imaginative can be bad..
hmm..den met audrey.. shop around..
and got to chat with her..
really enjoy the times.. and she bought me to eat lasi lemak..
hahaxx.. my second time been to holland V.. cant blame me..
quite a mountain tortoise in singapore actually..
alot of road district, bus number still need to noe..
=) okie.. den we went adel workplace to meet her..
nt bad leh.. is not those office type..
more on office house..
more comfy and homely..
ahahaxx.. maybe can inspire more too =)
today lessons also quite okie..
hmm.. den.. my math teacher very cute one..
mr cute," who didnt come school today?"
class, "lay peng!"
mr cute," you didnt come school yesterday rite?" (saying me)
Me,"nope.. i got come.."
mr cute,"hmmm.. ya class got two gals look like her leh!" (trying to say me)
Me,"huh? why got?"
mr cute,"got!"
thats how the conversation ended and he get back to mATH!
hmm.. quite embaressing la.. =) cos got another thing happen during chemistry..
we are learning reactivity series..
hmm
Potassium - please
Sodium- stop
Calcium- calling
Magnesium- me
Aluminum-
Zinc -
Iron- I
Tin- totally
Lead - like
Copper - carrying
Silver -shopping
Gold - goods
the A and Z i forgot what that
but is something stupid..
den I totally like carrying shopping goods
is of cos me who made up..
my teacher asked us to..
and ya.. got tease by my wonderful friend xiu hong..
she is really good yeah..
=) anyway one of my advice pals.. =)
hmm.. she will nag at me one..
cos i too excited for new year le..
den everyday talk abt shopping, new year and FOOD!
den she will haiz here haiz there.. hahaxx
but this year feel new year is meaingful is
not for the HONG BAO!
but gathering..
haven seen my relatives for ages since last yr..
duhz.. okie gt to rush to school..
my friend didnt give me information
and now expect me to rush to school and gave them the CD..
sign..

My dreams

2005-02-02T18:32:00.000+08:00

Tons of dreams..
-model.. (extremely FAT HOPE) [but that's one childhood dream till now :)]
-doctor..
-air stewardess
-teacher
-owning a cafe (fat hope)
-owning a ice cream store (fat hope)
-owning a chocolate shop (even more fat hope)
-dancer (fat hope?)
actually those (fat hope) ones.. don think i will be one of those.. or rather my career.. yep..
hmmm.. did share with cell grp and friends where and what i want to do..
esp after YI camp.. being prayed for the calling.. ya..
i did went.. quite excited i noe it.. but den i doubt again..
is that my calling??
ya can see.. that i am being inspire by soooo many things everything
of being what i want to be.. but den.. maybe none of the above will become reality..
hahaxx.. maybe tai tai?? duhz.. kidding :)
den don wan!.. hahaxx..
anyway.. after hearing much and much..
seriously..
NO interest in either JC or POLY
NO MORE!!!!
one thing.. JC life is study study study den As here..
POLY? no course i am interested..
so how??
hmm.. i will pray pray pray pray pray and P.U.S.H!!!!
hahaxx..
okie.. anyway still early..
exams is on the way.. haiz...
lets see how my walk is going to be thrilling each day with GOD!!! *joyful*
oh ya.. anyway.. really realise.. what pastor dianel say that N.C like to spot C mistake and den..
they will pi-li-pa-la ask ya questions.. why huh?? can maH??
cos i am one of those being asked..
okie.. really have to set up good testimonial... yep..
okie.. tt all.. school life as usual is WONDERFUL and not TERRIBLE!
cos i got the joy in the LORD..
and everything been place everyday, is HIS plan..
:)

life story exclusives? =)

2005-01-30T09:57:00.000+08:00

right now.. at this moment..
i feel burden..
a burden for someone..
which i donnoe what wrongs..
this is rather my first time feeling so worried but yet helpless..
first thing when i woke up..
that person is in my mind..
so i kept praying for that person..
right now.. i am still worried..
but worried is pointless.. i need to do something..
besides praying, there is lots..
i am not here trying to give the idea of i am liking someone..
cos i am [NOT]! =)
hmm.. really.. when ya have a burden for someone..
ya feel aching.. i have been feeling like that..
yesterday.. sermon was great.. but due to some things..
i cant go for the altercall..
hey is altercall spelt this well..
what thing?
*confidential* =)
choaz.. time for STUDY!

awh!!!

2005-01-27T21:38:00.000+08:00

firstly.. i am feeling so down right now!!!!
i try to control how i am feeling..
but sometimes i just don get what people wants ya noe..
it makes me feel irritated..
example for a group project..
not everyone is being united in working towards the goals in achieveing the purpose of the project
but alone mugging and doing..
useless.. pointless..
my example is trying to relate to smth..
i donnoe right now i am feeling sensitve or just that the things are not getting right..
i wouldnt say much but mostly write in my journal..
but.. i really wan to feel motivated in doing something for HIM..
ahhhhh...
God, let me be selfless.. let me be humble.. let me be someone to serve others and not wanting to be serve..
ya.. i have been struggling with smth but i still cant find the root of the problem..
shuts!
God, let me be someone who is influence by ya and not man.. don let me be influence by the world.
......i am speechless and feel quite disappointed.............but mainly me...
i wouldnt feel negative but on something that struggling me feel quite disappointed..
maybe now is the low point i guess..

bOOm!

2005-01-27T17:37:00.001+08:00

today went quite well yep! =)

oh.. anybody noes how is ruxiang??

our prayers will be heard and with our strong faith that God will heal her as well she herself believe..

she will be HEAL!! amen! =)

okie.. hmm.. donnoe what happen to me nowdays too..

weather? nutrition? excitement?

duhz.. i am eating well..

why i say so?

cos i had been feeling tired and lazy..

even though i sleep early..

i slept at 10.30 on weekdays.. yep! =)

due to wanting to be more attentive during lessons..

but how come huh??

i eat well, sleep well BUT i am not playing well!

how can!

anyway.. why i say abt weather.. is cos..

these few days, weather has been humid..

gosh! drink more water yeah!

my class is like having flu and cough season..

okie.. excitement is cos..

hahaxx.. my classmates noes it!

i have been chatting new year all along..

all of us agree that this year CHINESE NEW YEAR is MEANINGFUL!

hahaxx.. also donnoe why..

maybe the last dayzzzz of been a seconday student..

opps! hahaxx.. still long..

okie.. my math is super terrible..

esp when the teacher haven touch on that particular question

and we ask to do..

haiz.. don let me hate math.. and I DON WAN TOO! =)

solving math is exciting.. yep..

okie.. and I LOVE PE TOO!

hahaxx.. mr justin trying to ask me weight on that weighting machine..

NO WAY! infront of him! hahaxx..=)

but i did weight behind him when he didnt notice.. =)

opps! cos he is trying to found out my weight..

duhz!

hahaxx... my class esp the gals..

peng, marie, bao, cui, esther, may, spoon, jo

WE LOVE MR CHOW

he is the teacher that i mentioned.. he is a christian yep and tt time during lesson..

he told us one verse from the bible..

cute huh?? hahaxx..

but everytime we say we love him..

he blushed! hahaxx.. extremely red..

but he is more like grandpa to us! fun!

and mr teo, math cher is cute too

he is the discipline master but nevertheless

he is a great math teacher..

today we wrote an encouragement card and he happy until

hahaxx..

i am so happy too..

anyway.. teachers has been compliment our class during staff meeting,,

WE ARE THE BEST CLASS currently

got a close watch this year by daddy..

yep.. cos Os.. cant anyhow fool... but at least i rather he watch den he don watch

hahaxx.. realise my dad like act blur sometimes..

hmm.. not trying to say he is bad or mean.. cos

HE IS NEVER!! =) hahaxx..

but more.. hmm.. he noes what is happening but he act he donnoe..

hahaxx.. funny man! cos.. tt what i realise from him after a year back..

yep! =)

okie.. tt all.. going to discuss new year with my sister again,,

hahaxx.. so fun! =)

bOOm!

2005-01-27T17:37:00.000+08:00

wooo

2005-01-25T19:59:00.000+08:00

yeah.. finally i got my new blog skins done! yes!

and i miss writing lots of my wonderful entries for the past few days yeah..

okie.. firstly.. i wan to thank adelene for accompanying me shopping!

thanks adelene! i love it! =)

secondly.. bible study is great! =0 i enjoy the time knowning

the bible even well..

esp the differences between JOY and HAPPINESS

anyway.. i want JOY! =)

happiness only last a period of time

BUT

JOY.. the meaning in it..

is so deep that is unexpected

JOY is..

suffering

serving

believing

giving

and thirdly is...

i sent lin to the airport today..

yep...

i cant bear to leave this sister..

cos she has been wonderful from mission trip, camp and right now..

oh my.. guess i will miss the times together with her...

esp mission trip..

cos that why the nuts and dianel team worked together to serve God!

hahaxx..

and i am extremely excited for new year cos...

not because of hong bao..

rather the fellowship and gathering and HOLIDAYS!

opps! =)

okie.. got to do my math before.. i also donnoe..

cos the teacher only teach one question and expect us to do questions

we never do.. but is 5-1 honour i guess..

hahaxx.. cos heard from my friend that lot of teachers want to teach my class!

wow!!! hahaxx.. so exciting..

cos my class quite like to tease teachers one..

but we still very GOOD one! hahaxx..

=) trying to boost my class??

ops!

hero

2005-01-16T16:25:00.000+08:00

I AM A HERO!!! + INE
stands for female hero.. =)

happy

2005-01-15T23:21:00.000+08:00

ahh.. guess i have smth to tell all of ya..

i might e dancing.. guess is confirm..

nothing big actually..

i am so call the subsitute ba..

in e sense.. i am dancing with the alumni during chinese new year..

even though not in cca and being a subsitute..

i am already very glad that people approach me to dance..

yep.. as long i can dance..

i am contented but i will still try my might in dancing well..

cos my alumni told me i have two practices to learn whole dance..

hope i can.. but i noe i can with God! =)

hmm.. den actually the practice is on sat..

yup.. is still on sat.. but i told them if is on sat.. i cant make it..

unless in the morning..

thank God.. they say okie..

hahaxx.. but i have to scarifice my sleeping hours lor

it starts at 7.30am.. =)

no problem.. hahaxx.. den after chinese new year..

most probably i will have my tution le.. yep!

okie.. tt all.. feel quite guilty having supper..

i just cant have supper

i will crave more... opps..

regret?

2005-01-14T21:40:00.001+08:00

am i regretting in making my choice in 2004..

so many things happened..

be it relationship, studies and committment in church..

but ballet.. i didnt attend since i got my results le..

quite sad..

cos i wan to dance..

and this grade have to take 2 years.. so..

i will be 20 when i take my exam.. or 19..

ahh..

hopefully 19..

ya.. shouldnt compare with my sis..
she starts ballet earlier than me..

okie.. as what my mum say when ya learn something..

must learn to the fullest.. yup..

anyway.. i saw the syf dance..

yup.. okie for me.. but still wish them all e best yep..

no regrets..

hmm.. amazingly..

been wondering.. God already noes what will happen to me in 2004 le..

2005???

when will i be able to start ballet?

will i go JC or poly?

so interesting.. answer will reveal when time comes..

hahaxx..

regret?

2005-01-14T21:40:00.000+08:00

blurrrsss

2005-01-13T19:29:00.000+08:00

i am soooooo super happy and sooooo .....

cos we have so call finish furnish the classroom decor

not bad yeah!

give thanks to cui may norman tony liqi khairul and yew chin..

=) smile..

okie.. but get back to ........

why am i like tt?

cos i am troubling over my math question..

haiz.. everyone is getting the hold of it...

but me..

i just miss one lesson and it cause such great effect..

really have to take great care of my health,

-fight against bacteria

-fight against negative

-fight against emotions (esp bad one..)

-fight against satan

-fight against...

let me think first.. haiz..

have to get back to study again..

but i don mind.. just hope to keep it constant constant constant..

yep..

i miss lots of people even though i will see them..

i miss vivian, adelene, pin fen, tiffany, nana, xiaoshi, eugeniax, jie ning, joys, audrey, tash, souled out, liang zhi, andy and lots..

wonder hows pastor dianel and the team..

are they back?? cos i saw jas accepted my friendster invitation..

so shld be back rite??

i want to hear what they did there.. ahhh!!!

and quite stupid la..

i have been wondering whether are they eating the nutrition bar?

opps =)

anyway.. now again.. i am quite worry for ruxiang..

donnoe how she is doing now..

but i noe God hears our prayer and He is the mighty great healer! yup!

He will heal her!

=) i have faith in HIM and sure ruxiang have it too!

ahh

2005-01-10T22:17:00.001+08:00

God...

i pray that ya give me strength when i am weak or strong

ya guide me through the days of troubles, trials, frustrations, sadness

give me wisdom and knowledge to accomplish the will ya set for me..

God i really wan to fufill ya task.. please take away my negative thoughts and useless past

no point pondering over it..

i noe satan always trying to fool me into his trap..

but God, i noe ya will rescue me over..

God, i want to share the victory with ya..

thanks God..

for giving me peace in heart and blessing.

amen.

okie.. i currently finish my chinese compo..

but i donnoe why.. when i started my fnn

i feel so frustrated!!!

i cant take it anymore!!!

maybe is cos of the past two years i had been going through sleepless nights and months

just to complete one coursework..

i have to admit..

i am sick and tired now!!!

no wonder when i go to FNN lesson..

teacher wrote.. COURSEWORK sux!

haiz.. they also understand us..

i am gladful.. but i.. still have to do..

now.. what i am touching on is neither any O courswork

but is a pre one.. haiz.. and thursday is the deadline..

i haven type anything on the com yet.. but i have done the pre one

and i am struggling with that stupid INTRODUCTION!!!!

it sound easy but is hard!!! i cant take it anymore..

really hope this year past fast! i hope... =(

ahh

2005-01-10T22:17:00.000+08:00

blahz...

2005-01-10T18:34:00.000+08:00

hey peeps.. if ya see me very quiet..

its not i have something wrong with me..

but rather i am tired.. BUT no worry..

if i have something wrong with me..

i noe what to do yeah! =)

hmmm.. ya.. now.. i would keep on concentrate on my studies..

so.. mostly my focus will be on studies.. yep..

because...

i noe where is my standard and so i noe how much i have to work in order to reach to standard of 'O's yep.. but maybe i also donnoe where is my standard ya..

errrr.. yep..

okie.. feel rather head-bloated today..

my chinese super TERRIBLE!!!

still struggling with my compo.. =(

but thank GOD i finish my math and social studies!

i really thank God man..

HE really guide me through my days and troubles..

i learn alot these few days... i learn to be more prayerful..

i learn to care for people no matter what..

but i noe there is still more to learn ya..

my brother, vincent bought me chocolates!!!

thanks lots.. hahaxx..

hmm.. but i still cant get it.. why people like to blame the other people for smth..

just cant stand this kind of people.. very fed me up lots!!! but..

i still love the person.. =)

okie.. now need to get back to work.. cos i need to scarifice my shows to catch another show at the later part!!!

hhahaxx.. btw.. i did smth stupid during CME lesson.. cos we were told to write our so call testimonal.. and i wrote how i change when i was 15 and how i was liked before 14 and below..

cos i donnoe why.. my teacher does seem to noe alot.. but guess she is a hindu from someways she spoke.. so i hope Holy spirit will touch her through my mini testimonial yep!.. =)

tell ya something interesting

2005-01-06T20:06:00.000+08:00

let me share with ya something interesting happened..

never expected..

hmmm.. this happened during my PE lesson..

we having this talk by our PE teacher..

he never teach me before.. but when we listening him talk..

oh gosh.. he say something that ya will never expected and he say something that..

he say we have to experience everything..

from smoking to drugs? to alcohol and of cos XXX

i shall not say much abt that..

he say he been smoking and drinking alcohol but never take drugs..

he say we must experience if not WE ARE SOMETHING WRONG!!!!

oh my!!! and he say but we must CONTROL ourselves or LIMIT ourselves?

I have learn from this thing...

1) we have to be careful of what we say and what we listen too

2)guards our heart (you can see how the world is being'rojak' and we might just fall without knowing)

another thingy.. abt class position.. my class chairperson was quite trouble with the arrangement of sits and how to accomodate one another..

-people gave reason that they cant see well..

-cant concentrate

but i learn something from this too...

1) we cant please everyone, if that the case.. hahaxx..

2)for me, i learn that it doesnt matter where i sit actually.. but the problem lies on whether can ya discipline yourself to concentrate during lesson time.. btw.. sitting in the front does not mean ya will concentrate too.. hahaxx.. cos it somehow goes for me when i become so sleepy.. i admit..=)

what i am writing now.. doesnt pinpoint to anyone.. and is what i learn from the aspect of things that happen around me..=)

3 posts

2005-01-04T18:52:00.000+08:00

oh.. sorry.. my third post.. i jus remenber..
HEY EVERYBODY!!! I URGENTLY NEED TUTOR TO TUTION ME IN MATH AND SCIENCE
HOPEFULLY POA TOO!!! IF YA HAVE ANYBODY GOOD TUTOR IN MIND.. CAN INTRO TO ME!!! THANKS =)

oh... another thing..

2005-01-04T17:14:00.000+08:00

oh ya.. anything that i forgot to update..
i miss dancing alot.. esp my cca..
i donnoe why..
after one of my senior approach me asking me if i am able to dance on may or june..
but.. thats the period i am going to have my exams on..
and.. SYF is going on at this year.. saw them practicing today..
so.. what this mean.. two years which i have the opportunity to join..
sometimes wonder..did i choose the wrong choice..
but truly i miss dancing.. and i have not participate ballet for going a year..
guess i will continue to go after O..
ya.. my desire is to dance.. so i am not going to give up that easily..

schoool.

2005-01-04T15:16:00.000+08:00

today is the second day of school..
oh man... got all the stress from the start of the first day..
teachers been stressing on how the senior sec 5 done for their exams..
how they stress and how hard they worked for it..
hiaz... i can see my days going bonkers..
i can say that i am glad we are seperated into different classes for chinese..
so i can concentrate on my studies..
esp chinese.. i hope to get A1.. really..
and today has got our so call pre coursework B
something to prepared us for the july coursework B
what can i say.. a full report.. and must end in by jan..
aHhhhHHhh.. i donnoe should i be gladful or...
cos afterthat is the real O coursework..
by that time.. haiz.. don say le.. people who noes.. it will be like last year..
i donnoe how should i feel.. happy, sad, nervous,stress etc...
just only second day...

God, please give me the strength..
so i can handle my stress well and emotions too..
and also i wouldnt feel sleepy during lessons..
i want to truly concentrate in class to achieve the best result for YOU
please grant me wisdom and knowledge
to be able to manage my subjects well..
thanks God for guiding beside me..
amen..

and something disappoint me alot yesterday..
my classmates.. is a HE!!!
cos yesterday we were suppose to hand in out compo..
so i ask him how to phrase it..
as suppose i thought he is the best in english in class..
but he didnt help me but CRITICISE me..
okie.. this is gonna be bad if i continue to write... cos is GOSSIPING!
okie..is my english that worse??? =(

i want to help...

2004-12-31T01:04:00.000+08:00

hmm.. just came back from a band concert..

its nice yup..

is my school band that held this concert..

tiffany and pin fen did go too..

guess all of us really enjoy each other accompany!! =)

hmmm.. back to what i want to say..

while the group of us are makan..

receive message from adelene and ps. Dianel

that under the support of the church..

YI is sending a team out to phuket to do mercy relief..

ya...

i want to go when i receive this news..

but it is so impossible..

schools starting soon unless school has mercy on me to go there

but is also IMPOSSIBLE!!!

hmmm.. something for peeps here who are free at this period of time..

i mean on their holidays yup.. esp 'O' and 'A' or anyone else..

I REALLY ENCOURAGE YOU TO GO NOT ONLY TO HELP THEM BUT TO SAVE THEM FROM [sa.tan]

is a learning experience, is the time to let them experience and noe God, it makes ya grow in HIM and ya faith will increase through this learning path, it molds you [why?] to have compassion for people, to love people who they are, to care..just like what Jesus did.. no matter how this person is so sinful in ones eye..

that why..

i encourage.. i would like too.. but...i noe what i am doing on my part le..

to pray for ya all =)

something great too yeah!

yup.. that all... now just hope this world will be peace and sound for this one day till new year..

weird...

2004-12-28T23:34:00.000+08:00

this is weird.. super weird..
my younger sis is trying to pick up agruments with me..
and my sisters too..nowadays
haiz..
BUT...
i shall not bear grudges with her
BUT
love her more..
hahaxx...
yep... that should be!!!! =)
tell ya smth...
I LOVE GRANDMA LOTS...
I LOVE HER..
I LOVE HER...
hahaxx...
really thank GOD that she accepted christ long ago..
hmmm.. smth trying to say but cant put into words..
will disucss with my mum and dad abt it...
hahaxxx........
sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy......

confusion

2004-12-27T20:58:00.000+08:00

okie..now i am in such big confusion...

i still don get it..

i want to grow and i really want too..

but..

why i feel like i am not growing..

am i???

or am i just jealous because people are growing well in the lord

that covers me from seeing myself that i am growing too..

or my emotions are playing a trick on me..

as we shouldnt trust our emotions..

so.. what is this going on.. anyway realise jealousy is also part of emotions..

so...

haiz...

confuse...

2005 is coming soon...

my new year resoultion should be plan right now.. as well as my goals and studies..

anyway... wanna to thank for the present and cards.. ya peeps have given me yup..

thanks.. i love it lots...=)

adelene.. read ya blog just now...

ya dad will be alright yup as God hears our prayer and will keep ya dad and 'her' family in prayer too.. and for that toy... steff here wont feel sad at all.. for this thing has been disturbing ya and it does no good to ya too.. also encourage ya to throw away.. cheer up gal! for work.. ya dream job has come true yup.. wanna ya to enjoy what God has provide ya this job and always remember that Rhoi is with ya.. esp me.. hahaxx.. too thick-skinned la... =) okie.. sister.. any problems can find me yup.. be ya listening ear always yup! =) cheers on..

26/12/04

2004-12-26T20:35:00.000+08:00

I AM CHANGE AND WANT TO CHANGE JUST FOR HIM!!!

today i am baptise !!!

tt my decision and i am making my destiny decision..

isnt that GREAT!!! =)

believing and trust in what i believe

oh my!!!

is just so wonderful..

surely i never regret what i decide and what i am devoted to now..

yup...

now i want to just put into concentration on my studies, family, goals and of cos

GOD

thanks pastor daniel, wan ping, pin fen and my cell mates and friends in church

to accompany me to grow well in the lord and church..

thanks... =)

christmas bash yesterday was great!!!

27 people recieve christ..

just so miraclous that how God work on people

esp friends..

wonderful so wonderful is your amazing love..

hmm..

and for christmas bash...

souled out.. we did it GREAT!!

and the skits and mc and evrything.. the whole programme..

all glory give to GOD!!

AMEN!!!

super duper...

2004-12-10T18:58:00.000+08:00

i am super duper happy today.. i donnoe why too..

ahhh!!! have to admit yesterday i had a wonderful time with xiao shi and joel..

chilling out.. yup..

hmmm.. and that is my worst day too..cos

i munch on BK, ice cream and cakes..

see how my stomach can hold..

TERRIBLE!!!! =(

okie... continue...

i also have wonderful time with SOULED OUT!!

oh my.. just so satisfied with the dance we're going to perform!!!

oh my oh my oh my..

everyone just dance great man!!!

but our main focus is to..

DANCE FOR GOD!

lets us buck up till the end of chirstmas!

reply and realisation-not in dic

2004-12-05T18:53:00.000+08:00

okie.. realise my previous entry has many spelling mistakes.. please please don mind.. hahaxx..
okie.. a few reply to write now...

covergal: hey gal.. me too.. so long didnt get to see ya.. guess we shall be seeing each other on 17 dec... btw.. what ya add for blog.. i lost it.. *opps* reply asap k?? =)
zhizhi: lianggggg zhhhiii!!!! ttthhhaannkksss fooorrr ya encouragement card and sure no problem to link me... =) but need to pay blog tax=) kidding..
cui: i saw ya testimonial in friendster.. thankiew.. i love it.. short and nicey.. and miss ya gal too!!! =) and i have taken care well myself in thailand le!
lynnette: how trip for ya?? hmm.. let be afresh for everything.. esp the spiritual welfare we have just days ago.. and let take tonic now!!! tonic= camp ... hahaxx..

i am back from mission trip...

2004-12-05T17:27:00.000+08:00

okie.. i am back from mission trip..

a summary if what happen and whats going on...

first day:

we went to maxx hotel to stay..

oh my.. i can only say that place is GOSH!*big eyes*

a hotel that is so nicely decorated..

izzit economy??

if so.. it will be even WONDERFUL!

hmm.. the hotel is different type of style..

and i sleep in this room which i name it PASSIONATE ROOM.

why??

cos its red! EVERYTHING IS RED!! hahaxx..

nothing to fear about.. =)

den we have our 'last supper' with the 154 trippers before setting!

ministry haven start yet..

we had briefing that day in the local church

second day:

set off by taking domestic flight to NONG KHAI!

wowowowowowowowowowowowowo!!!

we stay in TIP hotel.. yup..

urch!

cool! so exciting! in high spirit! =)

third day, four day, fifth day, sixth day:

we went to schoolsssss.. many to schoolsss to evangelise..

yup.. we merge with team 7

be it performing skits, mc, songs, games

running the whole programme.. we done it well yeah! *clap clap*

ya.. we may need some improvement in some area but at least all of us tried our best

i learn alot.. but wait first.. let me say my trip..

hmm.. we are lead pastor prasit and wife and niu..

they are really good yeah!

have to admit we have wonderful time together..

and all the schools are great yeah!

kids and even teacher raise their hands to accept lord as their saviour..

and we even have rally.. ane one particular teacher and a lady touch my heart alot..

the teacher who seems to be hard-core accepted christ with her students

and this lady.. even though she didnt go to the rally..

but she told us and niu that she loves God.. but

because of curfew.. she cant make it..

amazingly... she has prepare all her contacts just to be contacted by the local church memebers..

cool huh?

and after the whole minstry..

we have our wonderful beautiful farwell dinner/supper..

its really wonderful..=)

seventh day:i lost track where i am...

eighth day: we sat on train but before that, i noe we had briefing in the local church.. yup..

and pray for the leaders, missionary,local church members..

den we have lunch at this viet restuarant..

yup.. its nice yeah! and fellowshipping is even great..

den we went shopping but we met this old man..

i think he is old but okie...

he looks like he suffers from rickets..

but i donnoe... he is extremely thin and weak..

so all of us surrounded him and pray..

he seems afraid of us but after our prayer..

no more!

but he only believes a little...in faith.. in God...

hmm.. so... feel disppointed for him but i noe one day God will still touch his life

cos God cares for His children and He want to claim it back what He lost..

okie.. train ride is fun.. never experience before...

only sit MRT!! hahaxx..

nineth day:

went shopping and bought stuff for my sisters and mummy and daddy and cousins..

at last.. hahaxxx..

by the way.. we stay in maxx hotel again!

and i like the room this time..

heard that we stay in an executive suite!!

it all about woody, classy!!

sound like vacation???

answer: NO!!!!

cos i am here to do something not to play!

tenth day: on my way back here.. i mean singapore..

CONCLUSION:

this trip has truly let me learn alot..

even though in someways i am involve in the unexpected but through this

i learnt my lesson and realise devil will find means and ways to destroy friendship

especially MISUNDERSTANDING! beware!!!

I learn:

-submissive to leaders

-don trust ya emotions

- all glory goes to God and by His strength and our faith, things works..

-solve ya problems fast but not in the knowledge of what ya think, center God to get things right.. cos by our wisdom, somethings might go haywire..

-sensitive to the right things

-be alert and clear in what ya are saying..

- team spirit.. cos this keeps team moving

-self-controlled [i don think i am really doing well in that area] *disappointed*

hope i have apply it.. (give comments, team mates.. cos i want to grow)

hmm.. i truly enjoy this trip, be it members and leaders..

three cheers for NUTS' FOR GOD!

is monday

2004-11-22T20:47:00.000+08:00

monday here again..

right now at this moment..

my family are guessing how much my dearest sister will get for her psle

tiffany: 235

daddy:220 (cos sister say no confidence)

mummy: 248

da jie: 238

er jie:

Me: 250

lets see on WEDNESDAY!!

today no team meeting..

so help mummy to mop the floor!

I LOVE MOPPING!!!

yup.. and cleaning up

but please no ironing..

sound so funny

as if i am advertising myself to be employ

way for missions...

left with 4 days..

so fast!

after that is camp

this year is so fast!

now i can feel the excitement for mission..

but i donnoe whether is that my calling..

hmmm...

i cant wait for camp and christmas!

just now, my sister and I were discussing what to buy for each other christmas present

i noe le and she noe hers too..

hahaxx.. but i ask her to wrap up den i wrap hers too..

like that den got the christmas feeling..

opps! =)

i am so happy today..

cos of my family!

peace and harmony!!!

2004-11-21T01:26:00.000+08:00

everything has solve...

ya..

conflicts is part of life..

but see how ya deal with it..

and this time i deal it wrongly..

i admit it..

but there is somrthing good i learn from this incident..

yup..

but i hope even if i remember..

i hope its a lesson and nothing bad..

actually is nothing bad now..

ya..

vivian and adel talked to me today..

addressing issue..

but i thank them for giving me time to pray first

before praying as a group..

why??

cos i need to calm myself down first..

i didnt say i am angry or smth (sad, excited, jealous, anxious etc..)

but at least..

i wouldnt be sensitive in what they told me..

yup..

but thank God i address this long time unsolve problem to Him..

if not...

its gonna be a BIG TIME PROBLEM in mission field man..

now.. i just wan to focus on my quiet time and prayer with God

family??? of cos! =)

and mission etc......

hahaxx.. anyway.. i hope my team mates will like the prayer request i did.. =)

stop it!

2004-11-18T21:08:00.000+08:00

MS STEPHANIE NG!!! THIS IS A BIG WARNING FOR YA!!!
STOP MUNCHING YOUR FOOD!!
IF YA WANT TO ACCOMPLISH YOUR BIG PLAN!
K!!!
REMEMBER WAT IS YOUR TARGET!!!
DON GIVE UP EASILY!!!
THANK YOU!

FROM:stephanie

problems....

2004-11-18T20:38:00.000+08:00

hmm..i donnoe what going on this few days..

i really donnoe..

but for sure..

so many things has happen..

like yesterday incident..

is all abt bagpack..

lots of misunderstanding..

God, please let me be able to be patience, self controlled and

the strength to do your work.

let me not entertain those thoughts..

even words from man to harm me..

just let me stand strong..

i just wan Your attention and not man!

please let me learn something from all this incident

and let me be able to handle these problems in a well manner next time

let me be humble and train me to have a forgiving heart

thank God for letting me experience it

amen.

i like this verse alot..and it makes me learn alot..

[ pleasent words are like honeycombs, sweetness to the soul and health to the bones]

proverds 16:24

another thing

2004-11-11T21:45:00.000+08:00

erm... this is meant for someone...

PASTOR Dianel! if you ever come to this blog.. remember to TAG me K?

thanks =)

happening!

2004-11-11T21:12:00.000+08:00

firstly, i wan to apologise to the people i show attitude just now..

vivian, tiffany

secondly, i want to thank people who care for me jus now..

adelene, vivian, tiffany, lynette, winston

yup..

really donnoe what getting on with me..

anyway just now what happen is what i want to vent it out

long long ago

quite scary..

i noe...

sorry...

as vivian say..

really need self-control..

and thats is what i need to learn..

being learning since 40 days of purpose..

but is all ups and downs..

i really hope i can change and transform myself through mission trip

really..

one thought that comes into my mind..

actually going to mission trip is also part of our spiritual food.

amazing ya?

but i thank God for everything He provided for me

a group of caring friends who stands my attitide..

ya..

and thank God for giving me enough money to buy flowers for mummy

i really thank God truly from heart yeah!

**statisfied and contented and true from heart**

today.. also let me fear of writing blog..

cos of pastor dianel..

*grinz*

and tmr adel is leaving..

gonna miss her! =)

tt all for today update..

i cant write tooooooo much

if not....

i also donnoe..

hahahaxx

*feeling better and ready for battle*

ahhh!!! i wan to C.R.Y

2004-11-11T01:47:00.000+08:00

i really wan to CRY

at this late moment..

i am writing my blog..

i donnoe what had happen to me nowadays..

is either i went MAD(crazy)

MOODSWING..

and nowadays..

i hardly catch any sleep..

like now..

i mean sleepless nights...

same as old time while having exams..

is bad..

donnoe is attack? or depression..

i mean mild...

but guess is depression..

yup..

why???

headache nowadays too..

really cant take it...

ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

I WANT TO S.L.E.E.P!!!!!

is that soooooo difficult?

haiz haiz haiz...

SAVE ME!

ddddd...

2004-11-08T13:59:00.000+08:00

i love dancing

a great fun yesterday

especially when ya started to catch the beat

and moves

thanks tash for being a great cher + gideon

have been thinking..

is my talent in dancing??

wondering wondering wondering..

it tt my calling..

have to pray about it..

and for ballet..

how??

argh..

going to discipline myself to go this sun..

don care..

but..

i will miss two lesson because of mission trip

hope i can catch up..

help me God!

another thing

i have to forgive before i can accept others..

yup!

tt the key!

and i found it after so much hurt

anyway..

relationship doesnt bother me much..

cos..looking forward to...

CHRISTMAS>MISSION TRIP>YI CAMP

isnt tt great!

anyway end of the world is coming..

have to start training up my faith

if i don wan to topple..

cos i have a feeling is our generation

tt is going to fight this WAR!

so..

brothers and sisters..

let put on our belt,amour,shield,sword

prepare to fight! =0

---being motivated--

*dancing freak*

i am tired..

2004-11-06T22:45:00.000+08:00

as i say...

i am lazy to update my blog..

cos...

I AM TIRED!!!

-the end-

i am fortunate!

2004-11-03T21:57:00.000+08:00

just come online to write something
it deeply touch my heart..
just now..
cui called me and asked me wanna to catch movie tmr..
i am challenging with time each day
tt i really feel sorry to my friends that i cant make time for them
be it gathering and so..
i am sorry..
but i feel touch..
that i have a group of friends that still care for me..
so.. going to catch movie with them on monday gathering..
but..
also have meeting on that day..
so i have to go off early too..
sorry..
but...

MONDAY AFTERNOON IS BOOK!

thanks cui and friends!
muacks and huggies!

questionless...

2004-11-01T13:09:00.000+08:00

i donnoe why..

really donnoe why..

why breaking up is so hurting..

if thats the case..

might as well don be in a relationship..

jus hate it so much..

thought i have overcome it..

and told my friends i will..

but i fail..

its a struggle to me..

why?

i have been encouraging myself

times and times..

but why ?

everybody noes...

i noe time heals

but i don wan it to affect me...

i pray and pray...

and really hope..

been wodering..

izzit his sights that makes me..

i donnoe..

jus dislike it lots..

i really need help! =(

God please look at this poor child that really needs help from you...

jus feel like tearing..

fund raising...

2004-10-31T19:56:00.000+08:00

woke up early in the morning

6.30am

i noe i should wake up at 5.30am

i fail?

hahaxx...

aiya..

don major on the minor...

am i rite?

okie...

i enjoy the team i am with today

yup!

FUN!!!

FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN!

even though i don really noe them

but through this event..

i noe them

and they are seriously nice man

hmm

today been wondering

is everyone enjoying...

i hope so

and really hope..

yup..

our group is doing some handicraft work

anne and some GB gals join in too

FUN!

been rushing the orders that had never expected..

and one nice thing happen too...

i met jeremy in CHURCH!

believe it or not...

incredible huh...

but anne also noe that got this particular lady

like things to be perfect..

cos...

she went to and fro to out stall..

but we still try our best to help her..

hope she like the overall amendments..

and...

ya...

no comments..

cos i am doing it for mission..

and ya..

i am tired..

haiz...

blah blah blah..

oh ya..

mY REPORT BOOK!

okie dookie..

i love today!

2004-10-30T23:52:00.000+08:00

hmm.. i am tired.. but God hear my prayer..

i am glad indeed..

joy of tears...

hmmm..

today went to church..

brought for unique and special friend

they are....

C.U.I. F.E.N

M.A.Y

N.O.R.M.A.N

J.E.R.E.M.Y (shocking one)

hahaxx..

thanks to hear that they are enjoying the session..

thank God..

keep praying yeah!

hmmm..

tiring day too..

bake cookies so on so for...

rush here rush there..

and thank God..

giving such wonderful weather..

so i wouldnt be sweating

even thought disliked the heavy downpour..

okie..

hard day tmr...

WE CAN RAISE THE FUND!

wonderful saturday morning!

2004-10-30T11:18:00.000+08:00

i have done my part in sharing!

yeah!

later pin fen they will dicuss about how i did.. yup

hmm..

for me...

i don think i did well..

i donnoe whether i did touch the point

what i am trying to share..

yeah...

redo my blog again...

this is e best i have ever seen in my blog life

but it is still half way through..

quite satisfied..

cos no errors...

hmm

later my friends are going to church..

i really and truly hope they will enjoy

the session in the church..

ya..

pray hard!

tt all...

=) smile

how i feel now!

2004-10-27T20:53:00.000+08:00

I DON WAN TO DO SHARING!

people got so excited

when they heard they are doing sharing

thats a good thing

-doing it for God

-let people learn smth

but for me...

i don feel excited about it

don even feel like sharing now

please please please

i am feeling just so moody

....

busy?

2004-10-26T01:29:00.000+08:00

hmm.. jus came back home after mission meeting..

not bad..everything jus went perfectly well

dicussing for the upcoming event!

raising funds for mission!

yup!

i like our group..

don know whether is confirm yet

but hope that's our group... hahaxx..

hmm.. in the evening went for guiter lesson!

andy is a nice teacher yeah!

i learnt it with satisfaction!

hope he does.. oppS!

hmm.. went to mac for dinner..

add more CALORIES!!!

oh my!!! have to control!

CONTROL!

guess no fastfood for me!

i am now deadbeat..update when i am free... =)

rainy sunday!

2004-10-24T23:43:00.000+08:00

having heavy downpour today..

i am drench on my way to meet vivian they all

decided to take cab from westmall

indeed.. i spend alot today...

haiz...

TOWN!

hurray for that!

went to town with

adel, vivian, pin fen, liang zhi and andy

there are jokes man!

really funny jokes happen!

but it cheer everyone up!

really enjoy the fellowship today..

took neo-prints, having dinner and shop around..

i did smth bad too

i didnt turn up for ballet..

too tempted..

ahhh!!!

bad!!!

but i enjoy every minutes of it yeah!

another matter:

currently looking for jobs!

i need a job now!

please!!!! ahhh!!!

woaH!

2004-10-24T02:57:00.000+08:00

i had redo my blog again...

how many times??

hahaxx..

just cant resist the cute song

it feature in the blog so...

decided to take it..

went to celebrate si bei birthday!

yup..

adel,vivian,tiff and me ended up

playing rock band!

[BUT]

its different from the secular!

[COS]

we are PRAISING

** ONE n ONLY GOD!**

guess i am the fool one in there..

hahaxx.. so funny..

sermon today is terrific yup!

not bad!

three cheersS!

today in taxi..

the driver was very funny..

love is made up of only kindness?

faith, patience is another matter..

guys.. question this.. is that so???

hmm... =) got to sleep!

any answer? feel free..

tag board gonna be ready!

*%* Sweet hOney priNcess dreaM *%* TeeNage waNNabe *%*

xxxxx

.....

terrible

ah

okie

1,2

brainless..

duhz

My dreams

life story exclusives? =)

awh!!!

bOOm!

bOOm!

wooo

hero

happy

regret?

regret?

blurrrsss

ahh

ahh

blahz...

tell ya something interesting

3 posts

oh... another thing..

schoool.

i want to help...

weird...

confusion

26/12/04

super duper...

reply and realisation-not in dic

i am back from mission trip...

is monday

stop it!

problems....

another thing

happening!

ahhh!!! i wan to C.R.Y

ddddd...

i am tired..

i am fortunate!

questionless...

fund raising...

i love today!

wonderful saturday morning!

how i feel now!

busy?

rainy sunday!

woaH!

% Sweet hOney priNcess dreaM % TeeNage waNNabe %